Currently, I am unemployed and the reason for this is quite long. I believe some of you who know me, or who has read my previous blog know about this. However let me just share with you.
In my final year, I applied job at Tech Semiconductor and was called for an interview. Having no experience in interview, I decided to go for the interview for an addition for experience. Unexpectedly, after 4 rounds of interview with the HR, manager and Director, I manage to get the position as planning engineers. At that time, I felt very happy [because I did not have any other job offer], moreover I felt that this position was very suitable for me. It was suitable because it did not require me to do technical things which I dislike. So at that time, I was very happy with the outcome.
However, after several months, as a final year student, I was doing my final year project, until my professor came and asked me of my plan after graduation. I said, “I get a job from Tech semiconductor so I think I will work for that company”. My professor replied “Oh you have a job offer already, I just think to offer you Project Officer at NTU to continue your final year project until end of November”. So I just said that I will consider it and tell him soon about my decision .
At first, I did not really consider that option at all. However, after some discussion with friends, somehow I begin to seriously consider it. Several reasons of taking this Project Officer is that I felt responsible to “finish” this project and moved by my team’s passion. Another consideration that because I have got a job offer and it will not be good to reject it. This means after the contract ended I need to find a new job. So for several weeks having a serious consideration, I decided to take this project.
In the beginning, taking Project Officer in NTU been as what I have expected. However, after several weeks, I realized that the project manager outsourced professionals to do what had been developed by me previously. As time went by, I was given tasks which I had not expected at all. Taking Project Officer became far from what I had expected and it really made me down.
At the brink of desperation, I encountered a book by Robin Sharma “The Leader who had no title”. I believe this book as one of the way of God’s prompting to me. It gave me a powerful message not to be a whiner however, be a leader. When we did our best in the job, the prize and the rewards will follow. It provided me motivation to work, it gave me reason to stop complaining, and the most important is that it taught me to have the right attitude to work.
I learned that it is one of the reason why God has led me in this path. Life was good after that and at the same time I had two final interview for December. At that time I can say confidently that it was a great plan from God. Yet in the end, I didn’t get the two of the companies.
This is why at the current situation I am unemployed. Sometimes, when I encountered my friend, I explained my condition and they replied “You should have taken the job offer from Tech last time”.
To be frankly speaking, I did feel sad with my current condition for several days. However, deep inside of me, I could vaguely see His plan for me at the end of the journey. Being a Project Officer, has its own parts in my life. It is far from my expectation at first, however it has taught me and helped me to develop my character to take on the next challenges for the next job [as mentioned above].
From perspective of other people, it might have been a foolish decision that I have taken. Yet, I took the decision through a discernment process and I believe that this is God’s plan for me. It may look stupid for now, but I believed God has His own reason, and I will soon see His Great Plan for me.
Sometimes God’s wisdom seems to be foolish. Some story to share:
Naaman [an Army commander] ask prophet Elisha to cure him from skin diseases. Naaman had his own expectation that Elisha will cure him by performing miracles. However different from his expectation, Elisha ask Naaman to wash 7 times in the Jordan River . For a great commander, it seems to be very foolish, he was furious! Yet because of his servants pleaded to him, he then gave it a try. After immersed himself seven times, God’s plan is revealed. His skin disease was healed.
“God’s wisdom seems to be foolish”
The thought of God became human and suffer for us might look so foolish. If He is almighty and yet omnipotent, why would He wanted to become a weak human and moreover withstand the persecution of human. Yet when it is realized, man caught a glimpse of his justice and his magnificent love, as well as the true meaning of the “greatest love”.
Again… “God’s wisdom seems to be foolish”
Therefore, I try to discern every step that I take. If after discernment process, I feel God wanted me to do something, I will do it and try to stay in my faith even if what I have done might look foolish for now, yet I believe God will show His wisdom. So instead of complaining and pitied myself for delivering myself in this foolish situation, I moved on, I took every opportunities that God gave to me, to be a better person, to be closer to Him, not to limit his plan with my thought and in the end to wait fervently and be surprised of His plan for me.
One of the story that has encouraged me so far is the story of Joseph, son of Jacob.
Joseph began his journey with a dream given by God. Having so excited about this dream, he shared this dream to his brothers and his parents. Unfortunately, it sows the seeds of envy and hatred in the hearts of the brothers. His brothers then decided to to sell him as a slave to Egypt.
Having received such a cruel treatment from his brother, young Joseph must have felt very down. Yet even as a slave, he still did his best. He still worked so hard that he is given a big responsibilities by his master. He is in charge of the whole possession of the master. When everything seems to be good, Joseph might have think that this is God’s plan. Yet again, unfortunate things happen to him, he is accused of things that he had not done. He is put in the jail.
Even having put in the jail, Joseph become popular with the chief of gaoler because of his hard work. He is in charge of all the prisoners in the gaol. He stayed in the jail until the famous story of Joseph interpreting Pharaoh’s dream and become the governor of the whole of Egypt. God has indeed fulfilled his dream and kept His promise.
This is a story of a righteous man who lived God’s plan in His life. Though it takes him several years of difficulties, of hardship, of asking ” What is the meaning beyond this experience?”, he has yet done his very best in every position even as a prisoner and keep persevering. Even though he was nowhere near his dream [he became slave and prisoner], he persevered, he did his best, and managed to help other. What a story of complete trust in God followed by hard work and perseverance.
To close this article I would like to share a story about the magnificent God and our plan
A man come to a retreat, told the father that “I am not Christian however I would like to challenge you”. Being so confused the father asked “What is it?”. ” I am a criminal. If your God is so powerful and so magnificent, ask your God to help me get away from the punishment that I should take. If this happen, I will convert myself to Christian and follow your God”. Then the father calmly replied ” My God is very powerful and omnipotent, therefore, I do not have the right to force Him to follow my will. If it is according to His will, He will set you free, if it isn’t, then you will still have to take the punishment”
Moral of the story? Sometimes we force our plan that we have had in our mine to God that we wanted to have this scenario to happen in our life. Yet we are not greater than our God. He is still the boss of our life and He knows what is the best for us. When we say “I surrender my life and my plan to You, O Lord” do your best in everything, persevere and just wait for the surprise. He might give you a long way, He might put obstacles around you, He might led you to “miserable” situation just what He did with Joseph.
But the good news is that He loves us and as our creator He knows what our purpose and know what is the best route for us to achieve those purpose. Therefore, currently in my situation I shall persevere, do my best and be amazed with His plan later on.
What happen with the criminal man? Just after the retreat, a police come and arrest him. The next day, the father was walking around the church and encountered the criminal man. This man said with tears in his eyes “Please baptize me as a Catholic, I have witnessed the power of God. Just yesterday, I was released from the prisons.”
Our God is amazing. Our God is omnipotent. Therefore, we are called to put our lives according to His plan, do our best, persevere and wait for the surprise to happen =].
“Yes, I know what plans I have in mind for you, Yahweh declares, plans for peace, not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” [Jeremiah 29:11]